Someone who wants to write just for the hell of seeing his thoughts

Roller Coaster

Let's climb up the track

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You tell me about your family

How you guys keep in touch in a very weird way everyday

It's adorable though

It took me a failing relationship to try and contact mine

I still find it hard to call them

I miss their voices sometimes

I miss their presence

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Your life before me and what you want to do

I ask a lot

I ask a lot from you

About anything that's on your mind

You are very independent

Sometimes I can sense it when you hesitate to speak

Sometimes I can tell it's the borderline ADHD

I can see sometimes the dorky girl being shy

You showed me a picture of you in middle school

Big hair and glasses

You talked to very few people

It's adorable in a way

So I like to hear you speak

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Ask me about what I want from the future

How I see us

How i see our life

No man has ever really treated you nice

And I am not a nice guy

Quite terrible in fact

But I do want to have a nice time with you

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I tease you and you give me a look

I say wacky shit when I'm dead tired

You laugh

I poke fun

One day I am pretty sure you are gonna skin me alive

I feel like I'm a 100 in comparison to you

Yet we typically do young things

Fun things

Let's grab a drink

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I'm so scared to feel again

I'm terrified of opening anything up

I could see all the danger

Why would I put my sanity at risk again?

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I'm afraid to hurt or to be hurt

Last time I hurt someone I saw them pack up everything

Last time I was hurt I saw myself ready to pack up my life

I felt so much pain I had only two options

To go out hitting 100 against a wall

Or go numb

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But right now I'm pushing against my fear

Cause you intrigue me

You are also super sensitive

I can tell by how much everything bothers you

It's as if you do that cause you just want everything to go smoothly

Way smoother than on those dark days alone

You were alone for a good chunk of life

You weren't romantic till you got older

No one really showed you or allowed you to be open with your emotions

I still remember you crying

You had a hard day

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I just want to be if that makes sense

To exist and not feel

And yet right now I feel a lot

And I want you to know that you caused that

Let's be kids together

Cause for too long we had to be adults

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So as we reach the top you tell me you love me

And I tell you I love you

And now I can feel the cart go down

The sinking in my stomach

I am scared

But with you my Roller Coaster

Hopefully I can enjoy the ride

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